Currently

I'm in a weird mood. I think I'm losing hope that the person I'm caregiving for is ever going to walk unassisted again. He's slower than ever, for no apparent reason. It could be dementia causing it, but our neurologist appointment isn’t until late September. Who knows what condition he'll be in by then.

I also don't feel like eating. I'll probably eat dinner, but that'll be it. All I have in me right now is coffee.

Additionally, I'm wondering how much I should tell my psychiatrist during my virtual visit tomorrow. My mind has been drifting into negative places, but it's always temporary. Today, I just don't care about much. I'm going through the motions and feeling numb about it all. I'm not in a positive mood or a negative mood — I just am.

And whatever happens, happens.

So, I suppose things could be worse. I could be getting mad about everything. There's no point in that, though.

It will change nothing.